The Voices of The Ego and The Higher Self

_The inner battle begins, you enter the ring,
The voices have been muffled; all they want is to sing.
One’s been the pauper; one’s been the king,
While one’s been in the ditch, the other on wings.  

(The ego speaks),  

“You do all this work so you can kill me?
Understand that I assist you to be.
You and I are part of we.
I am still a voice inside of me.  

Through times of suffering I assist,
Cause you to defend yourself and resist,
The feelings of pain that persist,
Without me a part of you is missed.  

I keep you sheltered, I relish the fear,
I only keep those non-threatening near.
I am the protector, I am the seer.
I wish to be you’re only dear.” 

(The higher self speaks),  

“I am the unconditional love and light,
The one that provides you with awakened sight.
The loving voice that provides no fight,
The supportive force in your dark soul night.  

I am your guiding system during times of need,
The one that provides you with the wisdom seed.
Your inner compass, your personal creed,
Provide you soul food, and wait for you to feed. 

I reside in your heart; I am the voice of your soul.
I provide you peace when life takes its toll.
I allow you to be in all your roles.
I am your connection to the unified whole."  

The voices have spoken, they have been heard.
The experiences have brought up the emotions stirred,
Seeing it’s all perfect, no need to be cured.
Living in love, allowing both voices their words. 

Repression silences the internal noise.
It doesn’t serve to suppress the voice.
Battle it or learn from it, it’s your choice.
Give them thanks, they maintained your poise.  

~ Angie Mammoliti

New Agers? Truthers? or Just Being?

In a world where you are used to doing what you’re told.
We are infinite souls, we’ve become the buyers and the sold,
Do you succumb to the herd, or are you bold?
Are you a cookie cutter, or do you break the mold?

Do you hide behind sheets, sleeping thinking you're awake?
While the men behind curtains pull strings, and you take,
What they feed you, not questioning that it is fake,
Burying your head in the sand for your ego's sake?

And do you pay lip service to the words love and light?
While ignoring the truths that are in plain sight,
In order to protect your fear that just might,
Hold onto beliefs, ego grips them so tight?

Or do you become consumed with truths that you hear?
Being angry, judgemental, caught up in the fear,
Letting yourself  be engulfed in all you hold dear,
Viewing systems with panic, thinking the end is near?

And do you question one system while excusing another?
Viewing religion as a belief exempt from all others,
Not seeing that we can love all just like one loves their mother,
Confusing love with attachment, the affection that smothers?

Let's open up to the beauty, the authenticity inside.
Feel the loving caress of the overflowing glide,
The true essence when we see this is just a ride.
See with awakened eyes, let the doubts slide.

~ Angie Mammoliti

Grow Up or Grow Young

It has been said to enter the kingdom, be as little children. Since the kingdom is within, enter your true authentic self. Bring forth your inner child and embody it.             

“What do you want to be when you grow up?” This is a common question children are asked. Do we question the ramifications to the children's sense of self due to this question? Do we stop and think what does 'growing up' really mean?

The term ‘growing up’ denotes you grow into something, that what you are now in the present moment is lacking, that you haven’t fully evolved. It gives an unsaciable, never ending view that we must ‘grow’ into something. And what are we ‘growing’ into? “What do you want to be when you grow up” is the same question asked to children as “What do you do?” that is asked to adults. What one will be when they grow up is merely a role, a working role that’s part of living in this 3D world. It is not the real us in our true free spirit nature that is child like. Children are free, and it’s through the programming and social constructing that places this burden and label of ‘growing’ up. Growing up = becoming a drone, a slave like robot to the systems, to the working environment. Children are meant to view ‘growing up’ as something exciting and something to look forward to. They view these working roles with child like wonder, wide eyed anticipation of how absolutely marvellous it would be to be a doctor or teacher. We set up our children to be good little consumers; we do not encourage them to just be. We encourage them to "be someone.” To be someone is to be a role that is not their true identity…a consumer, and be a working ant for the rest of their lives.

Growing up states that we are not magnificently whole from the beginning. It is like we are compartmentalized and incomplete until we become the magic number of a grown up age. To 'be'…, it’s not a matter of ‘who’ do you want to ‘be’ it should be…just being, being in our true authentic state of unconditional love and peace. Life is not viewed so much in the way we grow up; it is more what we grow into. On a grander scale, the whole idea of 'who' further perpetrates the idea of the masks of personality or roles that we masquerade in, misguidedly responding  as if we are the masks that we wear.

The collective societal belief is that we grow old. People then adhere to this belief system, taking on ‘mature’ tasks such as finding a stable career, buying a home, getting married, having children…the whole time we age, than we die. To some people, not only is this ‘expectation’ seem quite boring, it can be downright scary. How cookie cutter are we? Is this our true nature? How about the souls that see beyond these sometimes quite confining ways? What does society say about them? “You need to ‘grow up.’ " There is that term again! Grow into what? Does grow up equate to growing old just like everyone else? No thanks, I chose another way…to grow young. Yes, I just said grow young. What I mean by this term is I grow into youthfulness, re remembering my true authentic self that is child like: innocent, joyous and free. We can do this by bringing out our inner child. Remember those days? (pause break for a sigh of nostalgia) or does it have to be nostalgic? I invite you, all of you, to take your youth back: grow young. Be childlike, love big, wonder big, gain excitement and what ‘grown ups’ see as trivial. Trust me, nothing is trivial. All is wondrous and grand when life is seen through these eyes. Growing young is having fun…being silly, just being! Being you…whatever that means…you in your authentic self, not carrying the heavy masks that we wear like shackles. I mean just being in our authentic free state. Being silly…acting in carefree manner…skipping down the street just because you ‘feel like it', laughing hysterically because it feels good to, playing childlike games with friends because it makes your heart sing. When was the last time you made your heart a melody? I encourage you all to go make a pumping track for that beautiful heart chakra of yours. It has been closed off with grown up expectations for far too long. Sing until you and your heart becomes the song.

There is a line from the song ‘13 Angels’ by Corrosion of Conformity: “Maybe I’m a life time soldier, never die, and never getting older.” We are lifetime soul soldiers, on a quest to awaken to our enlightenment. We never die, for our souls are infinite. We never grow older, for our soul is continuous; there is no age in soul growth. With this being said, we are constantly rejuvenated through reincarnation, we are growing young. Through rebirth, we are born as a baby; we go back to being an infant, back to unlimited possibility. The limitation in our current paradigm is stifling. Career, house, marriage, children then death…does that sound like limitless potentiality to you? For some, this is the ideal and I pass no judgement for those that wish to adhere to these ‘ideals.’ My point is that there is more to life than merely growing into society’s expectations. There are souls that wish to break these social constructs and grow young. We are entering a new shift in consciousness. This shift of consciousness into a new world will break down these barriers that limit the soul. We are born into this contrived world for the last time, for we are returning to our natural loving childlike state. It’s time. Just be.

~ Angie Mammoliti

Life is Like a Movie

We live in a movie like reality. Life is a projection and we are the viewers. We are able to see life in this way when we detach from the scenes, from the actors, and from the ending. Life almost has a dream like quality, a sense that this is not real. It is an illusion, a figment of the imagination. In essence what is the difference between the dream world and our so called ‘reality’?

The people in our life, including ourselves, can be compared to actors in a movie. We take upon roles, with our personalities depicted like characters that an actor plays. In each role, (each lifetime), the actor accumulates experiences and adds to their resume of roles. The important thing to remember is not to take things too seriously, for we are living in a movie, a projection of our personalities from the collective.  The role you have taken on is not the real you. You are really the soul embodying the actors’ body and this personality in that specific role that you chose. Our soul, what is behind this shell of an actor, is our true essence which is unconditional love. We came to this 3D world to experience, to take on different roles so we can grow, learn and play, to re remember the magnificent brilliance that is us: the ‘Source.’

The important thing to remember is to enjoy the role you took on. It’s like watching a movie and enjoying the movie in its totality...its humours scenes, its dramatic scenes, even the moments of horror…we can appreciate the movie for what it is…enjoyment. We do not become the movie, we are able to separate ourselves as the viewer and do not see the movie as reality. So why do we get caught up in our own ‘real life’ movies? We have forgotten that this is a ride, that this ‘role’ we have taken on is not the real us. We become engulfed in lifes’ dramas, and all the emotions that derive from them. To transcend this, we must observe the inner states that come from personal experiences, so that we can optimize our souls’ growth.

Life is like the actor’s role without separate writers scripting their part. You are your own writer and at the same time, you are the  main actor. You are your own director, your own producer and you are your own agent, co-creating your role with different souls (co - actors) in your personal film. Most of the time, we forget that we are playing a role in a movie, in a fictitious reality. We forget that we are the soul behind the actors’ role, which the actor is merely experiencing the ride. It is like taking on all the emotions of the role and identifying those emotions as yours. Many get bogged down with their role, forgetting to appreciate the experiences that role brings. We tend to forget to have fun with it, and remember the power behind the actor.

To succeed in your role, take the observer’s position. Study like you are the actor watching your own movie unfolding in front of you on a screen. Examine the inner states that arise when situations unfold. Watch your reactions to these states. Observe your actions with your co- actors in your life. Remember, you are your own agent, taking on roles, hiring other actors to play in your movie. You are the co-creator of your film, with other co-actors. Sometimes in the act of observing our film, we have the perspective that it now has taken a turn to a drama or a horror scene. We then can become fearful of the next scene ahead.  We are afraid to press play on the movie, always pressing pause on the remote controller, not wanting to fall out of control as the actor, forgetting that is just a role we are playing. By not allowing the scene to start or continue, you will not know how the scene will unfold. Press play on your movie! Press play no matter what scene is unfolding. Be fully present while in the moment, not worried about pressing rewind and stressing what happened in the previous scenes, or not worried about pressing fast forward, anxious what scenes are yet to come, missing the scenes that are unfolding in the now. Be here in the now! Play while you press that play button. Enjoy every scene, even what feels like dramatic or horror scenes for they make an interesting movie.

Take the time to press the pause button, to reflect on the scene that is happening. Slowly observe it all, in all its colourful compositions. Observe the inner states that arise especially during the challenging times. Refrain from pressing the exit or power off button and living life by merely going through the motions. What appears to be challenges, are simply scenes guiding you to the next scene, with valuable experiences and lessons along the way.

Most importantly, enjoy your film, enjoy playing your role. Always remember…this is just a movie, you are the magnificent actor in your autobiography, adding to future films (future lives) and you have accumulated many roles in the past (past lives). You are more than just this role…you are more than just the actor…you are the soul that has taken this role and this actor label in order to experience this movie. Might as well have fun while you are in it! 

~ Angie Mammoliti